Could it be?

Do I dare be hopeful that something finally stuck??

Say what?

So here I was thinking that maybe last week we'd have our first shot of getting pregnant. And remember how I said none of the signs were there, even though it was suppose to be my ovulation week? Yeah, I was right. I never got my pain or anything else for that matter. I really didn't stress about, because I'm just not that sort. Tim asked a few times...but I think that was because he's a man and they have needs. :)

And now we fast forward to this week and I have my period, again. Even though I just had it about 20 days ago. My body was doing this same cycle at the end of last year. I didn't think anything of it and was mostly just annoyed. And then I lost my job and the following month my cycle seemed to get back on track. And was on track for two months. And suddenly the possibilty of trying for a baby threw it back off. And when you go online and poke around looking for answers...it's scary. There are so many possibilities of things that could be wrong and blah, blah, blah.

I have my normal yearly gyn appointment this month and will wait until then to ask about my cycle, but I'm really hoping that by then I will be pregnant. I suggested to Tim we just do it every other day for the month and take our chances. He's so thoughtful though, because he knows I want a boy so bad and if we do it and have a girl... At this point I am just thinking I want healthy and beautiful. And I want to be pregnant! I guess what this all really means is that I am ready!!

Go Vitamins!

I expected this weekend to have me in misery and pain. That's how I usually am when it's that time. I get migraines, cramps from Hades and the attitude to match. So imagine my surprise when all I had was a bad attitude that only lasted about a day or two. I have to think it was the vitamins that I've been taking...because trust me when I say a cycle like this has NEVER happend to me. If I had known it would be that easy to end my monthly torment Iwould have been taken prenatal vitamins all along!

In other news I've really been on a baby kick! Which I guess is a good thing...I mean I would hate to abhor all things baby at this point, right? Anyway wherever I go I gravitate towards the baby section...just to look. And if Tim is with me we ooh and ahh together over the tiny designs and then get that faraway "one day we will have a reason to buy this" look. I believe this is the same look our parents get. Only mine went ahead and bought the first baby outfit this past Christmas. Is that tempting fate? Is me looking at clothing and names and planning tempting fate? Is wanting a boy and doing what I can to have better odds at that, tempting fate?