We've been here before...

So here I am a week after my cycle and waiting once again for ovulation. I hope it will happen the way it is meant to this month. If not, then I get to ask the gyn about it...and when I do I imagine she will tell me to give it time. I know we haven't really been at this for long at all and I think we imagined how simple it would all be and so now that it is not drives me crazy.

I went to see my waxer today and she asked me about baby names. Now everyone knows I don't give out any names to women that can still have kids and I told her that. She laughed and understood, but then proceeded to tell me some names she likes. She mentioned Bailey Elizabeth, which is nice. But I think too many dogs are named Bailey, so it's off any list I may have. I of course didn't tell her this...I can't afford to have a mad waxer in my nether regions.

I had another friend that finally got pregnant after 4 years tell me about the wonderful fight with zits she is having. Really? Seriously? Zits while pregnant? Give me a break! I don't think we can ever get away from them. Gross.

Say what?

So here I was thinking that maybe last week we'd have our first shot of getting pregnant. And remember how I said none of the signs were there, even though it was suppose to be my ovulation week? Yeah, I was right. I never got my pain or anything else for that matter. I really didn't stress about, because I'm just not that sort. Tim asked a few times...but I think that was because he's a man and they have needs. :)

And now we fast forward to this week and I have my period, again. Even though I just had it about 20 days ago. My body was doing this same cycle at the end of last year. I didn't think anything of it and was mostly just annoyed. And then I lost my job and the following month my cycle seemed to get back on track. And was on track for two months. And suddenly the possibilty of trying for a baby threw it back off. And when you go online and poke around looking for answers...it's scary. There are so many possibilities of things that could be wrong and blah, blah, blah.

I have my normal yearly gyn appointment this month and will wait until then to ask about my cycle, but I'm really hoping that by then I will be pregnant. I suggested to Tim we just do it every other day for the month and take our chances. He's so thoughtful though, because he knows I want a boy so bad and if we do it and have a girl... At this point I am just thinking I want healthy and beautiful. And I want to be pregnant! I guess what this all really means is that I am ready!!