Stream of Consciousness Sunday: Balance

Time for my Sunday posting ritual, linking up with All Things Fadra and her Stream of Conciousness Sunday meme. 5 minutes, unedited and hit publish.

 I'm a Libra and by nature that means I enjoy things to be fair and balalnced. I like a yin to my yang. I can see both sides to a problem and usually stand firmly in the middle. Only now, in this moment? I can't. I can't seem to see how to balance two children. And all the help in the world? It isn't going to help.

Hubby has been home for a while now and I can tell he needs his balance. His balance is work and as much as he wants to help me, he needs to take a breather and do something unrelated to a toddler, dirty diapers or reasoning with the unreasonable. His work balances him and he needs it.

The balance I need has to do with myself and the kids. Each one has different needs and each day I wake up trying to decide how those needs will be met when Hubby goes back to work. The only way I can think of fiding this balance is to be thrown into it. I need to wake up and know that even though I am exhausted, I have to atend to the toddler. I need to wake up and know I CAN do it. That I will do it. Maybe taking each day hour by hour is a start? I need to start small and work my way up to big.

 I need to find my balance...I welcome finding my balance...and making it look easy. 

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Here are the rules for SOCS, taken directly from our lovely hostess' blog:

• Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
• Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spell-checking. This is writing in the raw.
• Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
• Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
• Link up your post below.
• Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.