Well we officially had our hospital tour of the maternity ward at the hospital where we will be having our baby. I have to say that both the L&D rooms and the post partum rooms were very nice, niceer than we expected to see. Hubby and I were both impressed. The tour guide was also a lactation consultant and so was big on pushing breastfeeding and spending time learning the ropes before you were discharged. That calmed me because I want to breastfeed and it seems everything I read is enough to scare you to NOT breastfeed...or maybe that's just me
After leaving the hospital...I began to get scared...I'm actually going to give birth to a baby. And that terror is probably the one thing that can keep me up at night...labor on TV makes me cringe, even when it's fake. Seeing the L&D room in person and all the equipment in person should be a good thing, right? So I know what to expect? Instead is has me scared and I think about all the things that will be happening and wonder how the heck will I get through it all? Sure, sure women have been giving birth since the beginning of time..but this is ME, I'm talking about! While I have a high tolerance for pain, do I have a high enough tolerance to get through labor and delivery? What the heck have I got myself into?!!??
But at least the tour put Hubby at ease and when the time come one of us will need to be at ease and I don't think it will be me!